Learning to let go

It took me three days to finally go in and look. I didn't want to see the emptiness, the reality that my oldest child chose to leave and go live with his dad. My heart is breaking. 

I've known since his was a toddler that this day would come. I thought i was prepared. But there's really no way to prepare when your child breaks your heart. 

I know I need to let go and as a parent this is just my first lesson in that. I know that it's not about me, that it's about him finding who his his, learning his path in this life and becoming a man. 

I can only be here to support him, love him and today..... Miss him.