What you dont expect....

Grief is a cycle, one that has many stages and can surprisingly switch between them at any given point for no obvious reason. Parents of children with special needs go through a grieving process. They grieve the life that they had envisioned for their child, or the relationship they wanted for the siblings. Sometimes its about grieving their retirement and the new realization that they won't get to be jet setters.

For me, I've come to believe that I am in the stage of grief with Walker of acceptance. I have accepted his abilities, the life that is before him and the responsibilities that places on me and his father. I have felt that this acceptance has become a stability for us all.

But am I doing Walker a favor by "accepting" his condition? Has this made me complacent in reaching and searching for new goals for him? Has this created a space of energy in which miracles cannot happen?

Yesterday I was reminded of the power of the divine. The power of prayer and the power of creating a future within myself that can become true.

I am continuing my spiritual path and this weekend had the true honor of working with a group of women who nourish my soul. I am in the process of becoming a minister. I set out on this quest in order to protect myself legally from the energy and spiritual work that I do, but what I found was something much more powerful.

I found hope.

I was reminded that what we put out into this world can manifest into blessings. The power of thought/prayer and visualization can be amazing. The universe provides us with the answers, they just may not come in the form we expected.

I know I will be reporting great things in the months to come.